Wild Heart

I'm surrounded by change. Transition is necessary and inevitable in life, but that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt like hell sometimes. Even valid reasons for change do not negate the fact that with change comes mourning. We mourn what was, what could have been, what we knew needed to end, or what we hoped to just begin. We mourn what's comfortable, and safe, and familiar. When I think of the word familiar, I think of home. I think of a place, or a person - someone or something that knows you so well that words are not necessary because your eyes speak volumes in a language that only they can truly understand.

Wanderer hearts such as mine will always feel a bit restless -- because we've tasted the world and experienced the magic that can often only be found when we allow ourselves to be brave enough to discover it. We've wandered the globe enough to know that home does not exist in a geographic location, but in the person or persons waiting for you there. And feeling slightly less than whole without someone's hand to hold is neither misguided or flawed because the universe is filled with pairings. The sun and the moon. Peanut butter and jam. 

I've crossed oceans, made my own path, started over, loved, lost, and loved again. And throughout every journey -- as amazing and life-changing as they've been -- all I really want is to come home to something familiar. To someone who can grab my shoulders and look me in the eye and say, I know life is chaotic and challenging and confusing sometimes, but I am here, and I've got you, and this adventure is ours for the taking. I don't need them to fight my battles or save the day, because I am a warrior - I have plenty of fight and fire in my soul. But there are moments I will need to fall, to rest, to let my guard down - and to be held when I do.

And I don't desire this because I'm weak, or somehow incapable of standing on my own two feet. I am not inadequate without you. I am fierce, and brave, and stronger beyond what even I can see in myself. But I believe I could be stronger with you, and you with me. I believe that ultimately we were not meant to walk this earth alone. And I know that despite the warrior in my soul, the very essence of my being screams love. I do not know another way. We're not guaranteed happiness, or fairytale endings. Life is full of mystery, and that's what makes the adventure so amazing. So when you find me, know that I'm not asking you to complete me. I'm asking you to join me - for whatever it's worth, for however long it would last. Because my heart is too full, too passionate, too wild not to share.